I wrote I Feel I’m Breaking Bad after realizing something uncomfortable about myself.
For most of my life, I’ve tried to be the guy who cools the room down when conversations get heated. The one who listens, asks questions, and reminds people that the other side is still made up of human beings.
But the last few years have been different. Everywhere you turn, it feels like anger has become the common language. Every issue becomes a battlefield. Every disagreement feels like a test of loyalty.
And somewhere along the way I noticed something I didn’t like.
I wasn’t just observing the anger anymore.
I was starting to feel it.
That’s the moment this song came from — the realization that the thing you’ve been warning people about might be slowly happening inside you too.
The line that unlocked the song was:
“Anger is my brother now, and rage my closest friend.”
That felt like the most honest way to describe the trap. Anger can feel righteous. It can even feel necessary. But it also has a way of pulling you deeper into the very conflict you once tried to calm.
The song isn’t really about politics. It’s about the internal struggle of trying to hold onto empathy when the world seems determined to reward outrage.
Or maybe it’s just about recognizing that falling from grace doesn’t always feel like falling.
Sometimes it feels a lot like standing still.
I shut off the news at midnight
But the shouting followed me
Every headline wants a soldier
For somebody’s enemy
I used to cool the room down
When the anger filled the air
Now I feel it in my bones
And I’m halfway over there
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I feel I’m breaking bad
There’s a contract on my soul
My heart’s out in the open
I can’t feel the ground below
I tried to walk the middle road
But the bridge is burning fast
And the crowd keeps screaming louder
Pick a side or you won’t last
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Every word is a battlefield
Every friend a judge and jury
Mercy’s just a weakness now
And love is dressed like fury
Jesus waves our banner
And he will turn the tide
The devil is your father
But God is on our side
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I feel I’m breaking bad
There’s a contract on my soul
My heart’s out in the open
I can’t feel the ground below
I tried to walk the middle road
But the bridge is burning fast
And the crowd keeps screaming louder
Pick a side or you won’t last
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Anger is my brother now
And rage my closest friend
It’s a trap that’s been set for me
A trap I still defend
I know the door is open
But I keep walking in
Like a man who knows the fire
But chooses the flame again
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Better angels used to lead me
Somewhere deep inside
Now they whisper from a distance
While the louder voices guide
Turns out the fall from grace
Feels a lot like standing still
You don’t notice when it happens
Till you take the bitter pill
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I feel I’m breaking bad
There’s a contract for my soul
My heart’s out in the open
I can’t feel the ground below
I feel I’m breaking bad
Like the tide’s pulled out to sea
If the whole world’s gone to hell
Where will it take me
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